Pills

Here I am with almost 6 years of sobriety (7/26/08) and I take pills to help me make it through the day.  I take a pill so my hands won’t shake, a pill at night so Restless Leg Syndrome won’t keep me awake.  I take a pill to lower cholesterol and vitamins to make me feel healthy.  So, what have I done?  Exchanged pills for alcohol?  It would seem that way.  I even take a pill for lower back pain.

 

But, what would you do?  Go back to alcohol?  I know if I do that I will die.  And I don’t want to die from alcohol-related symptoms.  I think I’d rather be known as a pill popper any day than to go back to the way things were in 2002.  I was making good money and came home every night so I could drink (alone, too) and pass out on the sofa before going to bed.  Many times I would fall just getting up off the sofa so I could go to bed.  Since my mother lived right below me, I would call her to tell her I was okay.  No more of those days.

 

People in my AA group have said that I’m now a drug addict because I can’t live without taking prescription medicines.  I say I’d rather be on pills the rest of my life than risk going back to alcohol to dull the pains I have every day.

 

What say you?